It will be three years on November 1, 1998 since I lost my best friend, my Mother. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I love her with my heart and soul and miss her so much. I have finally learned (after a year and a half in grief therapy) to accept the loss of my Mother. Her death was unexpected. She went into the hospital for a biopsy on her lung (Cancer was suspected) and ended up in Intensive Care for almost a month and then dying of hospital pneumonia. My Mother and I had a very rare and unique relationship - we truly were the best of friends. There wasn't anything about me my Mother didn't know whether it was good or bad - she was always there for me. Family and friends knew of our wonderful rare Mother/Daughter relationship and there those that envied it so! I always and still do, know how very lucky I was to have her in my life. When she passed away, I thought I would die. I really did - for I have never in my life felt such pain. My heart hurt me so! The pain was so real! I do believe in God and I believe he helped me to get through the pain and suffering and so did prayer. I began to pray everyday and say the three prayers my Mother used to say. I believe then and now that it gets me through the day. Still, almost three years - and there are the good days and the bad days. I had a dream the other day, it was so real - I believe it was real. I was flying over our old neighborhood and I could see my Mothers' head in the kitchen window and so I called out to her I said, "Etusch" (that was her nickname in Hungarian) "come to me once again please Etusch" and she flew to me - she had wings! We hugged each other tight as if we would never let go and I said to her-"You are my Angel"! and then I woke up! I was so happy! It was so real! My Angel, My Mother! I welcome anyone who would like to write me about their feelings. Thank you for the opportunity to tell you about a Daughter who loves and misses her Mother so!
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anniversary date 11-01-95
date of post 09-09-98