Although I hate him ... I love him
for being my father,
Although I fear him ... I love him
for being my father.
He died one year ago, after a lot
of pain, pain I wanted him to have
because he caused me such a lot of
pain so many years ago....
Feeling bad for those things I
thought, I wanted to die with him,
he died, I didn't.
I live on with him marked in my
brains, leaving tracks I can't get off.
I live on with him inside my body,
leaving pain I can't forget.
But still I love him,
still I care for him,
but still I want him back.
Father, I can't forgive and forget, but I want you to know I remember.
Nicky would appreciate email of support and understanding. [email protected]