I really don't have any suggestions on how to deal with grief except that I know I need to give myself permission without judgement of what is good or bad to feel. And try to have some compassion for myself and not think I should be dealing with this differently or feeling differently. I feel remorse and guilt, for example everything I say is wrong or I wasn't supportive enough for my mother and father. Or I should have waited to tell my father till after he came back from vacation. Just all this garbage that comes to the surface. The self hatred. The devastation. I am commited to healing. Whatever it takes
Teri