For Nate


My boyfriend and best friend, Nate, died a little less than a month ago. He was only 17 years old. He was the greatest person i have ever known. He had taken acne medicine and got a disease called Aplastic Anemia. He was diagnosed Feb. of last year. He died Jan. 23 of this year and i couldn't believe it. My heart was torn out because we were so close and now i didnt know how i could make it without him. I miss everything we did and sometimes i wish i could have said a better goodbye. I know he is in heaven watching and protecting me, but that doesn't help with the sorrow in my heart. It's so hard without him here and sometimes i wonder how i make it through the day without him here. There isnt a day that goes by that i don't think of him and miss him more than i can bare sometimes. I didn't want to tell him goodbye but i had to. The day after the funeral i went back up to his grave when no one was there and just sat there for an hour talking to him and telling him how much i miss him and still love him and death can't change the way i feel about him. He isn't gone in my heart, he will always be there. I prayed to God everynight that he would send me someone special, he sent an angel, he sent Nate.

A million times i needed you

A million times i have cried.

If love alone could have saved you,

You would have never died.

In life i loved you dearly,

In death i love you still.

In my heart you hold a special place,

That none will ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you,

But you didn't go alone.

For all my love went with you

The day God called you home.



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Anniversary date - 1-23-01
Date of post - 2-21-01

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