My Husband and Best Friend

Penny Ashley

My husband and best friend, Michael died at the age of 38 on July 10, 1994. As the 2 year anniversary comes nearer I am overwhelmed with the horrible memories of his illness. I really thought by now I would be better than I am.....but I am not.

I prayed really hard and asked God to heal Michael. At first I thought God didn't answer my prayers.....but he did...just not the way I wanted...He did let Michael get better. Michael is in a better place now...without any pain or suffering, and I thank God for that. I miss Michael very very much, but I am thankful God did give me Michael for 16 wonderful years. I guess I am a little selfish...I wanted more. I do have some WONDERFUL memories to keep forever in my heart, but right now the bad ones seem to take over the good ones.

I would like to correspond with anyone who has lost their spouse.

Hugs,
Penny



If you wish to write Penny you can find her at: bmc@tfs.tamu.edu
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