On January 3, 1996, my husband and I found out that we were expecting. We were thrilled. We had been trying for some time and were really ready to be parents. I had a wonderful pregnancy. Everything was perfect. We read every book available, attended two different child birth classes. Decided to go "natural" because it was best for Becket. Our name of choice for either a boy or girl. What a wonderful time it was. Everything was perfect. My due date came and went. I was 2 weeks and 5 days past my due date when I finally went into labour. We waited because we didn't want to induce and our doctor said everything was fine. I had a really long labour- 35 hours of dilation and 5 hours of pushing- when I finally asked the nurses to call the doctor and use forceps, they did. They had trouble finding the heart beat that time. The Doctor arrived 45 minutes later. I can remember as clear as anything him saying,"If you want to see your baby being born look now." Then my little boy was lying on my belly and the doctor was cutting the cord. I remember thinking "Hey Peter(my husband) is supposed to do that." Then all hell broke loose. They were calling code blue, and 15 people were in my room. They worked for 45 minutes on my little boy. They could not save him. He died due to lack of oxygen. I just laboured too long and his little body could not handle it. Note> Even though I wanted to go natural I would have done anything to save my baby. My doctor never offered me any choices. He simply said to keep going. Not a day goes by that I don't miss my little angel. Christmas will be so hard this year. Please pray for us, for our child, and for our future children.
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anniversary date 1-3-96
date of post 12-12-96