It totally took me by surprise when John asked me on our first date, I knew who he was before that and never expected it. July 11th, was our first date. He took me out on his boat, thinking I was only going for a short boat ride for 1 or 2 hours ,turned into a 12 hour boat ride. Immediately I knew and I know he did, it was love at first sight. From that day on we couldn't see enough of each other. We'd always say we knew each other in a past life or it was because we were so much alike. Thinking the same thoughts and saying the same things at the same time. I know John was my soulmate, I could feel it deep down inside and never had that feeling before.
I moved in with John after only 2 months of dating, but I just knew this was it. I thank God I did, just to have had that time with him. We had our ups and downs, but always say we were just going through grown pains. He asked me constantly to marry him, I always said I would but I wanted to graduated from College first. Now, I wish I would have.
Friday Jan 21, John came home from work had dinner with me and then started working on the bathroom with his friend , we where remodeling. I went out with a girfriend for awhile. I came home that evening and we spent about an hour together before he said he was tired and was going to bed. I told him I'd be there in a few minutes and ended up falling asleep on the couch. The next morning I woke up and found him in bed. He had had a heartattck in his sleep. I never got a chance to say goodbye.
John was the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me. He supported everthing I did, he always made me laugh and just knowing he'd be there when I got home, made me so happy. He'd Help with my daughter, laundry, cooking, made me coffee every morning, told me I was beautiful, smart, and He loved me ,everyday. He would tell everybody how much he loved me. I don't know why such a wonderful person had to leave me behind. I know the only thing that's keeping me here is my daughter. I wouldn't want her to feel even close to the way I feel without John. My life will never be the same.
I Love you, Honey.