Mark decided that he wanted me as a friend, a soulmate and the father he didn't have. I have created, and maintain, a large part of my personal web site as a memorial of Mark for his friends (it's visited often) and for my own healing. It helps somewhat. Please link to it. Please visit it. It may help others, who experience the loss of a friend. Relationships grow into what they will and don't always fit into a simple or single catagory. The loss can be just as great.